strangeboi

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2008-05-23T07:28:00.000-07:00

hello ! yes it has been hell long since i last posted .

anyways .. no one views my blog also.

stress ar ..

although holiday is like here ..

its still very stress .

exams when sch reopens , lots of hw .. etc ..

its so diff .

not like how i used to slack in sec 4 anymore !

life has been a bore so far .

haven really grown any taller .

arhs shit man ...

i want to work during holidays one !!!

arhs . i guess i have to forget it thn .

there goes my LV sling bag =(

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2008-03-21T09:57:00.000-07:00

hi ppl and happy birthday to myself ..

it is 22nd march today

maybe there would be smth wrong with the timing shown .

anyways , jc life's sucks . darn boring .

homework test . etc are all coming back .

boring .

anyways , i had a quarrel with this friend of mine .

we're very very very close .

we are friends for 4 years .

she is the closest to me .

we used to have lunch always and meet up very regularly .

though we may have some arguements at times , things will always turn out fine.

she have somehow strengthened my life in secondary sch .

her attitude maybe bad at times but i noe she dont mean what she say .

we had this quarrel before chinese new yr .

and since then we didnt chat anymore .

my calls were ignored , i was blocked on msn .

i tried my best to contact her but she is always un-reachable .

it has been for months since we last chat .

i really wonder how is she living ?

i miss chatting , going lunch , and shop with her .

its very different without her . .

i miss her seriously .

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2008-02-28T05:10:00.001-08:00

arhhs . i'm like sad agnn .

why am i alway down .

why cant i be like some ppl ?

who thinks simple and are happy .

i seriously dont wanna be the way i am now .

its just smth natural .

i didnt want that to happen either .

i dont wanna think of what would happen in future .

praying doesnt seem to help .

its hard for others to understand becox they haven been through it .

i seriously dont wanna live life like that .

it would be meaningless if life happens this way .

i need help .

but i doubt anyone would be able to help me .

(dont ask me what problem is that)

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2008-02-28T03:16:00.000-08:00

yo !

sch life sucks

i want to have holidays

i wan to wake up at 1 pm and go out at 2 pm

i wanna go club, pub . etc ..

arhh

i think i'm damn loser .

i've been in sajc for 2 months to almost 3 months .

and i cant recognise the buildings and i dont even noe where is the ava !

stupid rite . yea. i'm just super not observant .

it feel so awkward in sch now .

everywhere i go would be mostly acquaintance .

though there are some closer ones around .

i'm just so not ready to study !

i'm still in some kind of slacking mode .

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2008-02-23T08:54:00.000-08:00

its quite amazing that there are ppl who still read my blog.

okay . anyways , i'll make it a point to blog once in a while !

buttt . mostly my post would be emo ones . of which i dunno why .

maybe its a place where i vent out some of my frustrations .

reaching home at 12 am is considered late ?

tt's what my mother thinks .

okay , i know because of that incident , she became very protective .

but i think she is over-protective when she asks me

"who do you go out with ? "

"how you know him or her"

"where does he/she studies ?"

like wtff . just have a kind of feeling that

she would condemn someone if he/she didnt meet her expectations.

people would probably say " she is concerned and worried for you"

but i think she's over - protective lo .

like i'm already 17 !

not very old but not very young either .

i think i'm on my way to be a very weird person .

and next ! my fucking phone .

i accidentally dropped it into the basin .

and water enter it !

so ,, i brought it to sony erricson to repair .

and wtfff . its beyond hope !

i just got it for fuckingly 2 months .

and it fuckingly spoilt ..

so what am i fuckingly supposed to do with it ?

throw it away ?! arhs .

brought it to china town to TRY to repair it .

but i think it would be a fruitless attempt .

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2008-02-21T03:51:00.000-08:00

i screwed myself up .

i screwed up in everything .

i always do the wrong things .

i'm bad at almost everything.

best at slacking .

why do all the weird stuff happen to me .

why do i do silly things to myself ,

causing me to be fuck. short in the end .

why am i diff .

i wan to be normal .

i want to lead a normal life !

but it seemed that i cant.

i hate my fucking existence .

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2008-02-06T22:22:00.000-08:00

hi people ! its chinese new year !

so happy cny !!!

okay . time flies ar .

its new year again !

and i'm gonna be in army in 2 years time

better not think abt it.

oh . i'm not very enthu abt it .

or i should say . i will SELDOM be enthu abt things !

anyways .. chinese new year is a time where

relatives get tgt to catch up with one another.

what do they ask ?!

"heyy . where are u studying now ?! "

"oh , studying at Saint andrew JC currently"

" huhs so fast ar ?! i tot u secondary only lei "

( do i look like a sec sch KID ? yea i think i do. my bloody shortness ! )

" oh no la ! i had Os last year "

" huhs ? what sch agn ? i dont know what is it ? i dunno all the JCs one "

its funny when they ask for the sake of asking !

okay . next they would turn to my sister .

" hey ! when u getting married ? "

you must be thinking how old is my sister . she's in her mid twenties .

wu liao man !

andd. my mother has been a very irritating one .

" boy ar .. your ear dont put so many holes la ! later all the aunties say ar . you cannot guai abit meh ?! "

wthh . there are ONLY 4 holes and she's making a fuss out of it .

and its not like i will grow stupid-er with more piercings !

okay nvm . new year . must say good things .

be optimistic .

yea . look forward to the great year ahead people ! =)

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2008-01-27T21:18:00.000-08:00

HI HI HI !!! MY BLOG IS LIKE DEAD FOR SO LONG.

okay ! but .. hmm . during this period of time .

many things have changed . i've been promoted ! yay .

Os is over . results are out .

i'm applying for SAJC .

my results hit the score they require .

but ! hard to say ! i may end up elsewhere .

spent my first few weeks in SA as well .

was okay . pon alot of lessons .

and didnt do alot of work .

i bet its quite the same for most of the ppl . lol

actually i agree with what my friend has said .

i'm more suitable for POLY as i'm VERY slack .

and he was encouraging me to go poly as well . lols .

yes . i didnt want to go to a JC . but i have little idea on what course to take in poly.

i didnt want to regret when i'm older .

and so , i end up choosing a JC .

hahas . okay . and . lastly .

i've graduated from newtown sec .

the place where i spent my 4 youthful years .

i've learnt many things in these 4 years .

ppl have all changed . and i've deflated .

i've grown vain-er . it is also the place where i have left behind

many special memories . things are gonna be different .

friends would be going to different schools .

i would see less of them or would even lose contact with some.

would have to make new friends all over agn.

its kinda natural . no matter how . i would try to catch up with them once in a while .

okay tt's abt it .. for once , i would say " thanks NTSS ".

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2007-11-21T21:38:00.000-08:00

yox peeps. okay random one .

AND Os is over.

okay maybe i'm abit slow but at least its over.

i just love that kind of feeling to wait for any results .

i think i'm sick but its just so fun !

i just love seeing people go gan chiong and nervous !

lols ! okay .

life has been pretty boring though .

when i'm at sch , i'll hope that i can stop studying and just find a job.

i'm currently coped up with two jobs .

both with peanuts pay . but it helps to keep me busy.

have been out everyday lately .

have applied for my PAE .

and have choose my choice .

i hope i dont go to the sch of my 2nd choice and etc .

okay i guess that's abt it .

will update once in a blue moon !

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2007-10-03T07:53:00.000-07:00

super long didnt post !

prelims over . results out .

next would be Os .

time is passing so slowly now !

i cant wait for 13th november.

nah it doesnt make much of a diff to me.

its so unfair ! some end their exam on 7th !

and mine !! 13th . like wth ! its a week of a diff .

arh exams do sucks .

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2007-07-28T05:17:00.000-07:00

i think it would be kinda an emo post today .

sry for that . topic for today will be on fats.

sometimes i find it really stupid .

i have tried my best losing weight .

and i think i somehow succeeded .

however , it jux feels that it is nvr enuff .

i have been asking myself alot of times if it is all worthwhile.

somehow , i have told myself a great "YES" .

trying to lose weight or maintain ur weight is damn tiring .

how many ppl actually restrict to what they eat daily for every meal .

many would sae they wanna lose weight .

however , some dont act according to what they say .

hate these ppl. say things n do smth abt it pls.

i somehow really pity those with bulimia or anaeroxia .

they didnt want that either .

the worst is to be laughed at for being fat .

arhh pissed !

fuck myself . i hate trying to filter all that i need to sae .

there are so many things that i couldnt express as i wish .

its jux a bloody mental problem that happens always.

fuck life , fuck food , fuck fats !

fuck the phrase " u gained weight "

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2007-07-05T07:08:00.000-07:00

hEYYSS.

shall post a neutral post since starr's post is always high.

thn i get jealous. lols.

okay sian arhh ..

since sch reopen , " its like" so stress.

i m seriously going to die man !

got like tonnes of work waiting for me to do,

to handup . i've got detention today.

didnt know that i will get it too.

its the 1st time in my 4 years.

of course , becos detention started this year.

crapped. didnt really go for veh long .

wanna thank michelle sia .

went vivo . did quite alot of bad things.

lols . my cl oral was hard like fuck .

like how would i noe why the government do this n that for handicap.

urghh .. fail for sure liaos. the qns ask until so chim somemore.

unfair!!! okay its jux fate. nvm , will jux accept it .

how i really wish i was more hardworking !

complete all my hmwk on time !!!

its too much to finish lahs !!!

okays .. its time to sleep though its only 10 plus pm . lols .

tmr will be a slacking day ! except physics!

sian like fuck !

okay byes.

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2007-05-25T07:08:00.000-07:00

kind of an emo post .

last day of sch, cleared books under desk.

didnt do veh well for exams .

was avg . had a good for conduct .

was i really tt bad ?

i've nvr get good before .

not that its always fair or poor but veh good or excellent.

wad do i have to improve on in my appearance and attire ?

as written under the comments .

does improving on that help to earn money ?

so i dont give a damn .

cl lesson was 5 hrs .

from 12 to 5 pm .

nth else for the day .

have been always thinking alot .

i'm definately a person who thinks alot .

as in really alot .

not study wise , bt emotion wise.

why do i have to bother abt others impression on me .

i've tried my best to not care abt them bt i think i failed each time.

even until now , i'm still filtering wad i'm typing .

i cant type with ease at all.

why must i always hide away from problems,

cant i face them .

words are really very powerful .

they do hurt much more than physical pains.

here i m crapping agn without getting to the point.

fuck my sensitivity.

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2007-05-16T02:42:00.000-07:00

mid year results was crap ...

ok who will really say tt it was good even if they do veh well .

most disappointing was EL . i got a c5 . wth ...

c5 nvm . bt its jux hit c5 ...

ok try harder .

maybe its jux my standard .

i tink EL will really affect my l1r5 alot .

i tink my l1r5 is still in the 20 range .

didnt bother to count ...

o level chinese in like 13 days ?

i tink its more stress than psle .

at least psle my mother will still take "leave" .

see me at hme play or wat.
now she like dont care alr.

ok obvious .

thinking of primary sch life ?

its so much more slack.

those things are like finger tip stuff ...

i'm sure everybody regretted for not scoring well .

ok cant blame our little brain for nt functioning at its fullest during p6.

ok shall end off ... i will normally nt tok abt personal stuff ...

a blog is nt personal enough .

i jux noticed i singlish a lot .

nvm . cant blame i cheena la .

go china fa1 zhan3 ? maybe nt ...

i'm not white enough.

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2007-05-11T05:27:00.000-07:00

i seriously think i'm abnormal ...

how i wish it wasnt like tt ...

ok another post tt comes once a month or two.

mid year exams jux ended ...

didnt feel relaxed at all ...

like wun do well for it ...

kind of become more slack nowadays ...

i dun even know wads wrong ...

wrong year to slack la ...

ok O level is a real bore ...

who would sae it isnt ...

hate comparing answers ...

maybe because after comparing answers after the exam

will make me more dis-heartened ...

kind of childish ... life still have to go on ...

jux isnt happy with many things with life

and myself ...

ok my life is boring .

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2007-04-05T10:05:00.000-07:00

long long long time since i last post ...

i think this blog has been dead for like months ...

nobody will read it anyways ...

many things have happened between this short period of time ...

like tests , exams , auditions etc ...

okay on this happening day which is 16th of march .

i joined the campus superstar audition 1 ...

got thru audition 1 but was "out" at the audition 2 ...

i was the 2nd to audi at audi 2 and also the 2nd to be out ...

how pai seh ... literally jux flunk it ...

my voice was like deep one lvl down compared to audi 1 ...

jux not the usual voice ...

audition 2 , they chose 22 out of ard 100 ppl ...

like wth ... received several comments from judges which may be useful ...

stuff like i have an ABC slang ... huh ?

abc slang how to change ... its kind of hard ...

thn this is wad i saw at the channelu website .

# 警告 5 ：假ABC？OUT！

王力宏、陶喆喝过洋水，是道地的ABC，

他们在唱歌的时候，有所谓的“ABC腔调”（洋腔洋调）。

很多参赛者将这些腔调学个十足，有过之而无不及，最后还是“OUT!”。

原因是，我们要的是原汁原味的你，千万不要装ABC，你只需要“做自己”就好。

okay nvm ...

actually i din zhuang/act ...

it jux come naturally lei ...

its over . veh wasted .

study hard then ...

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2007-02-17T07:32:00.001-08:00

since i'm kind of free ,,,

shall do some blogging ...

happy CHINESE new year everyone ...

sch was bad on fri ...

being the emcee was kind of stress ...

was glad that it was all over ...

have to rmb all the clicking, speech

and follow them step by step ...

ok glad tt nth went wrong ...

then went tiong with angela and leslie ...

thn home ...

today ... went to look for clothes in morning ...

had reunion dinner after that ...

dinner wasnt special becox its wad we're having every yr ...

after dinner ,,, went to china town ...

its lame lame lame ...

its damn squeezy and the irritating "chocs" went to quey sheo ...

home ...

ok thats it ...

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2007-01-19T02:38:00.000-08:00

its freaking long since i previously posted ...

life has been jux bad ...

here and there u will hear ppl saying all about studies ...

its like only january ...

and everybody is anxious alr ...

but it should be the way ...

and i have understood that busy-ness can really bring friendship apart ...

wateva it is ... friendship is always so fragile which it always is ...

now u can be good friends with one but 10 years ltr ,,,

u may end up ignoring that person ...

ok , why m i toking about this ...

it has been like a 6 day week for me ...

even sat also have to go back to sch for bio ...

argh bored ... but this have to be the way ...

its back to the sec 3 life which is stress !

but the stress level have increased ...

jux took height and weight recently ...

short la ... but shd be avg weight i think ...

aiming to be obvious lighter like ard 50 or less ?

a little mad ..

but how many ppl can really say that they have gone from

severely over weight to under weight in ard 1 plus years ?

ok i'm not under weight ...

for me to choose now ,,, i wld rather be short than to be fat ...

most probably becox i have been through it ...

i think i would regret in future ...

why m i toking abt these ... ok .. life is boring ...

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2006-12-13T02:31:00.000-08:00

veh long didnt post ...

life was normal ...

jux came back from genting ...

kinda sian there cox its jux plain buying stuff ...

hate going to places tt temp goes below 20 degress ...

its not i scared cold la ...

but i hate my lips for always tearing n sort of swell ...

standard alr ... always like tt ...

3 weeks away to stress ...

sec 4 next year ... kind of fast ...

mux relax finish this last 3 weeks ...

lol ...

tt michelle said zheng wei liang .

zheng liang ...

zheng wei ...

eh lame ...

SazE

Wednesday

6.46pm

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2006-11-22T07:32:00.000-08:00

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2006-11-08T19:25:00.000-08:00

have been a very long time since i last post .

finally my two weeks of extra lesons have ended .

there is like so many homework .

would be trying to look for a job asap .

so if anyone there gt any kang tao , tell me .

the previous post was rather ...

i dunno what to say .

its not my quarrel la .

have been busy these few weeks .

like busy with "work"

i think i may start my next round of ...

this pic maybe rather er xing . bt i'm trying to put pics .

so i bo liao n nth to do n so this .

SazE

11.30am

Thursday

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2006-10-26T21:34:00.000-07:00

can say its holiday alr ...

bt still have extra lesons for 2 weeks ...

life has been quite boring for this week in sch ...

with all the post-activities n chinese lessons ...

wed was tiring ... had to be the MC for the chinese reading competition.

wasnt really nervous ... bt was just thinking of minimizing the ps-ness ...

thurs gt back report book ... wasnt rilly happy with it ...

BT lucky i still have my $250 cox of the top 25% thing ...

its too expensive tt i cant afford to lose it ...

ok i'm a money face obvious ...

life has been tt boring so far ...

still looking for a job ...

i tink the next two weeks would be a slack one ...

so can relax abit la ...

bt next thurs alr gt the chinese test ...

sian ... my brain is alr switched off since the a.maths last paper ...

SazE

Friday

12.37pm

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2006-10-20T04:11:00.000-07:00

was glad at first tt thurs which is yest dun need go sch ...

thn only like 50 out of 320 ppl went ...

thn e principal veh angry ... sae wad hw

is she going to ans to the civil defence ppl who came to our sch alr ...

n hw does it reflect on our sch students ...

thn she came up with smth lame

those absent without MC will get canning for guys n

3 days of suspension for girls ...

was rather effective for many ...

after hearing so many ppl going bk ,,,

i went back too ...

its was lame n boring ...

i learnt impt stuff ...

we mux nt panic when there is FIRE

we mux nt jump down the building when there is FIRE

we mux nt panic when there is FIRE

we can call both 995 n 999 when there is FIRE

cox according to tt person ,,, they r brothers ...

din rilly stay throughout ...

went Vivo alr after tt ...

today went PS ...

watched the rob b hood ...

saw tt TKGS girl there ...

super suay lei ...

tt michelle totally win ...

she trick me into calling her ...

cox i noe wad's her purpose of calling ... thn i purposely dun pick up ... lol ...

thn she msged me saing eh i gt bad news for ur SA ...

thn i called bk ... bt when it started ringing alr i knew was lie ...

hw stupid can i get to actually fall for her trick ...

feeling rather sad n bad yest ...

dun ppl think before they say anything to hurt ppl ...

dont they apologise for it even after noeing it ...

all ppl noe is to use others such tt it is a gain to them ...

i dont understand abt humans ... i rilly dont ...

words rilly do hurt much more than physical pain ...

why does it seems like i have lots of problem ...

i tink i will rilly break down one day if everything continues to accumulate in me ...

SazE

7.55pm

Friday

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2006-10-18T02:54:00.000-07:00

i rilly rilly dun understand ...

i rilly studied for bio ... i did ...

its nt like as if i didnt ...

i still fail ...

can sae i sort of tried my best la ...

i wrote all i noe for the qns bt all nt relavent n rubbish...

tt's what makes me even more upset ...

why is bio the only subject tt is giving most problems all along?

bio is always jux there ... fail or pass ...

dropping it like a bit waste one year ...

i rilly feel so useless ...

ok i'm ...

i dun wan go for re-exam !

cant i jux have a miracle get few more marks n pass !!!

its so stresing to study everything once agn ...

n doing the paper ALONE cox only 1 stupid person failed .

somemore pass alr also nt like gt count in exam ...

it jux sort of determine if i can continue next year anot ...

i rilly dunno ...

EL had been a miracle ...

i got 72 for like this end yr exam ...

bt overall also pull down ...

all others like betw 65 to 70 ...

sian ... n once agn , bio the only one failing ...

dun wan tok abt these kind things alr ...

make me worse only ...

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2006-10-17T02:11:00.000-07:00

getting back results during these few days ...

couldnt rilly care less la ...

all were close to another grade ...

like 54, 59 , 64, 69 74 ...

see alr also sian diao ...

so nt mentioning abt it ...

wld be having quite a number of holidays coming up ...

like this thurs , which no wise ppl will go

not saying those who r going are nt wise bt i'm sure they have their reasons

friday is moderation day ...

n i tink i can say tt i wld be promoted to sec 4 alr...

i jux have a rilly weird feeling n worry tt i wun be promoted lei ...

bt after getting part of EL today ...

i m quite sure of being able to promote ...

everything is such a bore ...

once agn , ppl compete for everything,results ...

is it tt impt to win ?

ppl r so xian4 shi2 n competitive ...

i'm also nt sure if i'm included in it ...

couldnt care much abt it la ...

tt's jux human's instinct ...

its whether u show more or less of ur competitiveness to others ...

having things piling up in ur heart n

nt being able to express them freely

has been a big problem ...

things will get worse n will jux accumulate up ...

i believe this has been my problem all the while ...

life ahead is a bore

SazE

5.46pm

Tuesday

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2006-10-16T03:56:00.000-07:00

bored ... wil be back to sch tmr ...

marking day is like so short ...

only 1 day ... some other schs gt few days lei ...

haze was bad today ... ard 130 i tink ...

sat went pasir ris agn ...

thn we were bored ...

n so we went to "buy" beer ...

thn like play the 5,10,15 game ...

thn loser drink la ...

thn went Ps yest ...

nth much lei ...

went kbox at paradiz centre today ...

then bought stuff n nth else ...

long sch hrs wil start tmr ...

boring la ...

things will remain as it is ...

thx for being so truthful ...

SazE

Monday

6.54pm

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2006-10-14T02:21:00.000-07:00

someone can actually tell ur friend mean things .

in fact , it should be bestest friend ...

its of no use to say sry now ...

wad's done is done ...

wad's said is said ...

sry cannot cure everything at times ...

its more than hurt than to be angry ...

little did i expect u being the one to say n tell me such things ...

i have never tot tt u were such a kind of person ...

my impression on u have changed ...

blame ppl on things tt cant be changed much ...

its character ... wad do u expect ...

n i wun change it jux for u cox i find its nth wrong abt it .

n it will jux maintain this way to avoid any more quarrels .

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2006-10-13T07:32:00.000-07:00

finally exam is over ...

after few week of stres ...

it all came to a stop ...

finally i can have a good sleep ...

its the time for some work to take place ...

a.math was bad today ...

nth is good actually ...

went vivo today ...

still gt alot of shops nt open lei ...

thn watched the WORLD TRADE CENTRE ...

we gt the B row seat ...

thn it will be veh uncomfortable to watch in tt manner for over 2 hrs ...

in the end yulin , jun kit n me went to sit at the steps for the whole movie ...

lol ... thn went JE for some kinda job thing ...

reached hme at 10 ...

wore uni throughout ...

n i tried it agn ...

its jux tt temptation la !

ok nvm ... nobody will noe wad i'm toking abt ...

SazE

10.33pm

Friday

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2006-10-11T01:44:00.000-07:00

i'm like veh free ...

tmr still gt bio n emath exam n here i m wasting few mins of my time

was so relieved tt bio paper 2 had ended today ...

dun wan tok abt it la ...

i'm alr so in the holiday mood ...

cant wait for fri arrival ...

thn i wld be veh veh free ...

then i will go for my interview to promote product ...

sure cannot one la ...

i'm only like 15 yr old ...

so young n innocent ...

veh worried for amath on fri ...

i tink will fail ... haven rilly touch on anything on amath yet .

tmr have to pia n chiong liao ...

SazE

4.44pm

Wednesday

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2006-10-06T02:10:00.001-07:00

stress week ... haven been rilly stress this week ... quite slack ...

i'm damn like slack this yr ...

amazing thing this week is i passed my chem pract !

its like i have gt no time to do cox i read the instructions wrongly ...

thn i m left with like only 20 plus mins to do ...

when the teacher sae pens down , i'm like only writing finish the 1st box of ans .

ok nvm ... mon had chinese exam ...

tues had english exam ... thn like 2 days break n todae we had SS n emath exam ...

was quite hard la ... thn had cme paper ...

was so impt n useful ... the paper motivated me to be a good citizen ... wth .

one more week to sort of struggle through ... exams r so boring ...

SazE

6.20pm

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2006-09-16T02:35:00.000-07:00

wasnt really busy these few weeks ...

withdrawn from the crystal thing cox my grp seldom go ...

save time also anyways ...

didnt go for the sci thing which i'm supposed to go during holi ...

jux dun get it , y mux there still be tests when exam is like so near ...

aren't they supposed to give us time to revise ...

ard one month more to EOY ...

gt quite many things to memorize n study ...

tink will fail some sub ...

dun wan think of it also ...

pract exam coming soon ...

dead bored ... its like 27,28,29 sept ...

stress month ...

SazE

saturday

5.42pm

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2006-09-07T07:22:00.000-07:00

had a bad day ...

who can i blame ?

i rilly hope sometimes tt i didnt exist ...

y mux i be born into this world of miseries ?

its unfair ... being a human is difficult .

hw i rilly wish tt everything will jux end ...

by committing a suicide wld be a sin ...

so wad else ? walk on road n be knocked down by a car ...

this wldnt be my fault or a sin then ...

who wans to be born ugly , fat , lame ...

nobody ... bt its jux something tt one cant do smth abt it ...

y mux ppl bad-mouth abt others ?

y mux ppl laugh at others ?

all these do hurt ppl alot ...

who wans to be born stupid , lazy , shy ...

its jux nt something tt one wans ...

everybody loves to compete ...

compete in studies , work , play , money , life ...

is it necessary ?

death could solve all problems bt

y nt face the problems ...

ok i'm contradicting myself ...

life is jux very meaningless to me .

born - study - give birth - work - die ...

eventually one still dies ...

so might as well nt be alive?

i dunno

SazE

Thursday

10.40pm

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2006-09-05T06:55:00.000-07:00

had a tuesday passed just like that

slept at like 1 plus yest ... nt main point ...

i have so many things to tell God everynight ...

bt i jux dunno hw to or wad to sae ...

i jux feel weird n abt to fall off ...

feel tt i'm going to lose faith ...

i dunno why ...

woke up ard 12 plus today n

went eat lunch n then to bukit m. mac to do some things.

then went hme ...

ard 8 went to run with some person at park

then tt person half way went to run ard the estate

n i went to run to tiong alone instead ...

was rather far n was competiting with buses n bicycles

kinda lame n stupid cox obvious lose one ...

then ran back hme ...

it all took up ard 1/2 hr ...

nth much ...

SazE

tuesday

11pm

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2006-09-04T07:49:00.000-07:00

bored ...

went marina square with some person A yest ...

bought like some thing ...

ok then was time to go hme ...

then went running ...

was like ran ard my estate with some person B ...

quite far i shd sae ...

most probably run to tiong n back to hme tmr ...

bt haix ... jux nobody wans go ...

is it tt dangerous n dirty ?

i tink its more fun than to run in the deadly park

i shall run alone then ...

todae went for bio in the morning ...

then reached at like 9 am for lesson then

cher was like i tink overslept n then lesson started at 10 instead

thx so much for shortening my 1 hr sleep !

then went to harbour to eat lunch with some person C !

n then went to B hse for awhile to steal food !

n then went to err g*m with some person D !

lol ... g*m was argh bad ... lucky din see ppl of whom i noe ...

then went hme n nth else ...

study is so off my world now !

nth much ...

SazE

Monday

11.00pm

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2006-09-02T18:54:00.001-07:00

had been a few days b4 i last posted

n late HAPPY BIRTHDAY angela !!

( my 5th time )

argh u dun need to thank me agn ... lol ...

nowadays the 15 yr old kids tt jux had their birthday

r so poor thing ... now then can make ic ...

mine alr rust until cannot rust liao ...

its nt i wan one actually bt tt's the difference betw a child n an adult

of like 6 yrs ... ( 1 mnth = 1 yr )

i din go sch on thurs ,,, had wad celebration n end sch rather early

quite a waste of time tually ...

sort of pon la .. bt jux sae tt i was sick .

friday ,, went out with dr to i tink ard raffles city ...

then nth much for tt day ...

then sat which was yest ,,,

was some children's birthday ...

kids nowadays ,,, r very rude ...

wish them happy birthday then they ask u call back tmr ...

i woke up late ,,, n so din go to ...

felt bad bt sort of made another promise ...

then had to go to uncle's hse early ...

then sort of went bowl with cousin ...

argh score was bad ... so dun wanna type out ...

then was like went out !

n went home ...

so i didnt study at all for like 4 days alr ...

abit out of point ...

SazE

Sunday

10.10am

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2006-09-02T18:54:00.000-07:00

had been a few days b4 i last posted

n late HAPPY BIRTHDAY angela !!

( my 5th time )

argh u dun need to thank me agn ... lol ...

nowadays the 15 yr old kids tt jux had their birthday

r so poor thing ... now then can make ic ...

mine alr rust until cannot rust liao ...

its nt i wan one actually bt tt's the difference betw a child n an adult

of like 6 yrs ... ( 1 mnth = 1 yr )

i din go sch on thurs ,,, had wad celebration n end sch rather early

quite a waste of time tually ...

sort of pon la .. bt jux sae tt i was sick .

friday ,, went out with dr to i tink ard raffles city ...

then nth much for tt day ...

then sat which was yest ,,,

was some children's birthday ...

kids nowadays ,,, r very rude ...

wish them happy birthday then they ask u call back tmr ...

i woke up late ,,, n so din go to ...

felt bad bt sort of made another promise ...

then had to go to uncle's hse early ...

then sort of went bowl with cousin ...

argh score was bad ... so dun wanna type out ...

then was like went out !

n went home ...

so i didnt study at all for like 4 days alr ...

k abit out of point ...

SazE

Sunday

10.10am

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2006-08-30T03:14:00.000-07:00

was kinda feeling real sad now ...

then was like raining n lightning ...

everything jux went wrong ...

all i tink of was all the sad things ...

i dont know why ...

had a bad day today ...

lessons were boring ...

english gt to continue watching the show

tt is being played on this mon

then gt back PPR !

kinda dunno wad to sae ...

jux feel tt it shd be better

n yah , ppl shd always aim higher in order to improve

here r the results:

E.Math: A1

Humanities: A1

Chemistry: A1

Chinese: A2

A.math: A2

Physics: B3

English: B3

Biology: C6

that add up to a l1r5 of 10

n l1b4 of 8

n also thx alot to my bio who made my

PPR a much BeTTeR looking one with a C

bt its an interesting subject whereby i can study abt the wonderful me

n my plants

feel weird abt somethings tt happened in life ...

jux so weird ... i rilly dunno abt myself ...

wad's wrong ? i rilly dunno ...

n i'm rilly wondering hw to study for the end of yr exams ...

its alot to rmb ...

i'm jux a kia su person ...

bt i doubt i will start studying only until when exams is like a week ltr ...

tmr i dun tink i wld be going to sch ... i wld be "sick" ...

its a waste of time anyways ... i wld rather sleep ...

bt i somehow feel like n dun feel like going sch tmr ...

i rilly dunno wad to do ...

argh i dunno ... dun wan tink of anything ...

life sucks for once agn ...

SazE

Wednesday

6.30 pm

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2006-08-26T20:51:00.000-07:00

finally blogged agn ...

soon the holiday will come ...

n i will be able to relax ...

bt heard tt chinese mux go back for lesson ...

sian bu sian ...

Ans : sian ...

many things happened in sch this week ...

the mk happening event is so happening ...

conclusion : one have to be humble jux like me

wth ... i'm so bhb bt i always am ... so jux take it la ...

next ... gt back like a few results ...

so far is

e.math - 84

huma - 77.6 i tink

english - 65

the rest i tink i dunno yet ... bt can roughly count la ...

talking abt results ,,, i had 6 tests this week ... only wed no test ...

so almost like went stressed up bt nice ppl dun get stressed easily ...

din rilly do veh well cox nice ppl do make mistakes sometimes ...

next , the project superstars is coming ...

bt age limit is like 16 to 35 ..

bt the dance floor can ... 15 to 65 ... lol ...

i didnt sae i going ar ...

so dun tok crap n dun assume

i'm jux telling ...

next ,,, dun tink going sch next thurs cox i may be sick ...

cox gt chers's day performance n half day only so i

tink high chance i will be sick ...

n finally ... next week only gt one tests n its the chinese ...

always test one ...

like whole term 3 gt like 9 tests with one test every week except the national day week

ok ... a long post today ...

quite a bhb one ... lol ...

SazE

a nice person

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2006-08-15T04:03:00.000-07:00

was having bored weeks ...

haven been updating cox lazy n jux lazy ...

last week was like 3 days holiday ...

so was more relax n fun ...

then was like sick n friday had to perform the talent time thing ...

talking abt talent time ...

its like almost everybody gt into the 2nd round ...

ok then ... had a long long day in sch today ...

cox bio was like straight after sch which usually ends at 3.30 ...

today lesson ended at 5.10 pm ...

then we were like copying ans for like 2 hrs n 40 mins ...

copy until hand pain like shit ...

then cher was like not talking for 1 hr n 50 mins ...

ok i'm too exact ...

tmr gt no chem test ...

so dun need to pia tonite ...

argh ... nth much ...

waiting for sep holidays ...

SazE

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2006-07-29T01:10:00.000-07:00

had a tiring day today

woke up early in morning at ard 6

then went meet arun at near bukit merah there

was like quite late n still miss bus somemore

then was like so suay until we alight wrong bus stop n end up

walking to padang which was like quite far away

then started the city walk n was rather noisy

as it was heard that over 20,000 ppl was there

walk was tiring and finished quite fast

then went for the 4 million smiles thing

was fast n ended at like 11.45

then go raffles city with quite many ppl

and ate mos burger there

then went pool with mitchell,fishball,yanhui,pakin n sarah

and i was the first to leave

will be going out again later

never even touch a single homework today

anyways was quite a happening saturday

i really need to buy a bag badly

its like broken until ...

jux didnt have the time to do all these

lol , cant blame busy man!!!

SazE

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2006-07-28T01:27:00.000-07:00

have got nothing to do at home

but wld be going out ltr

yest S.S test almost like gt 0

dun wan tok abt it

thn tan say pin is like dui4 wo3 you3 pian1 jian4

went take shirt from him today

then he said do you think u r fit to wear it ?

then still ask me help him put biscuits in cher's pigeon hole

tmr still have to reach padang by 7

so early n i rather sleep

but i think i will go cox of CIP

its a super lame walk tt i went to walk yest already

n is going to go through it again tmr

took an hr and 10 mins yest

but i think tmr will take ard 1 and 1/2 hr

cox many ppl going as well

then after whole thing still have to go for the 4 million smiles thing

life is so bored

SazE

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2006-07-24T03:25:00.000-07:00

dunno y jux feel like blogging todae

today had been a bad monday ...

jux hate mondays ...

jux hate everything also ...

had chinese common test

then boring lessons

except english ...

cox EL we jux have to listen to the cher talking for 1 period

so 1 week got 6 periods of EL n she will talk for4 periods

then music last period

was lame until like shit , use the two sticks produce noise

thn go for the student leader course thn tan say pin was like ... la

dunno how to describe ...

its like as if i rilly wan go for the course like tt ...

waste my time n effort ...

was feeling sad n was v. moody

sch life was rilly busy for the week

i tink i probably stress myself out with all the activities

i rilly hate sch ...

hate myself n everything ...

i'm back to the " everything in my life suck" mood agn ...

was rilly a bad post la ... everything jux suck ...

SazE

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2006-07-22T23:19:00.000-07:00

sian sian sian

veh long nvr blog liao

thn like getting so busy nowadae

so next post wld be a few weeks ltr

mon to sat is jux 5 busy daes

mon gt student leader course

u jux cant blame me, student leader ... lol

then mon still gt ar...

thn mon still gt malay ...

thn tues n thurs is like will leave hme ard 6 plus am thn come bk at 8 pm

somemore tues gt chinese ATP

then thurs gt student leader course

thn fri gt ar...

thn sat gt crystal thing

nth much also la

having tests every week

at least 3 per week

n tmr still gt chinese compo

tests ...

mon - chinese compo

thurs - SS , amath , e math

SazE

NEWEST UPDATE

2006-04-30T22:41:00.000-07:00

finally update !!!

having exam nowadays ...

rilly going crazy man !!!

i din go sch on fri ...

sort of stay at hme study ...

bt still gt play la ...

sian ...

looking forward to the holidays ...

bt still have to go bk to sch ...

freaking bored man !!!

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2006-01-21T18:56:00.000-08:00

sort of finally came to update ...

my com actually spoilt so i cant even use ...

yah ..e life nowadaes is so bored ...

3/2 life suck ...

i also gt nth much to sae ...

CnY coming le ...

at least there wld be like holis la ...

if its like a full week sch ,,,

it wld be super sian ...

oh ya ,,, tt ccb is totally DISGUSTING dao ...

dun act la pls ... make my hair all stand nia ...

tink u veh handsome meh ... kns ...

my ah gong more handsome ar ... knnbccb ...

ewww yerr ... see it rilly feel like vomitting ...

m i being a bit vulgar ...

ayeee ... cant stand it la ...

puiiiiiiiiiiiii !!!

SazE

knnbccb

updates

2005-12-15T04:04:00.000-08:00

updates !!!
came bk from china le ... was veh cold ...
then was like basically eating & playing throughout the whole journey ...
the lowest degree tt it went was -2 degree celcius ...
the dae b4 going to china was the most unlucky dae ...
1st , went pool ... then my finger kana by the table ...
then go bowl ... i fell flat after the throw ...
then took 195 ... the bus spoil ...
urghhh ... anywaes over so long liao ...
saw alfred goh the dae b4 ...
was damn suay ... i on the wae to work then took 33 ...
jux nice same bus as him cox he going to sch ...
then is like he smirk at mie ...
so i jux smile bk ...
wth ... so wad if he sees me wit my coloured hair ...
sack lor ... sian ...
sch going to reopen soon le ...
i haven even touch on any bloody homework ...
heck la ... the teacher might nt even collect it newaes ...

SazE
blarxdy

2005-12-05T19:55:00.000-08:00

hello everybody this is stanley tay blogging from a hotel internet cafe in china.did you guys get the beat?
haha.
not really.this is his super ultra 'lame' cousin blogging for him.
*smile*!
stanley tay is AWAY.
somewhere in china.i wonder if he's dead.china's such a dangerous place.you could get mad cow,hand foot,avian,sars,and gawd knows what else!you guys better stay away from him the first few days he comes back and see if he developes any signs of the above mentioned diseases.yea,im sucha ,mean cousin.but well,all cousins are mean,im barely just doing my job.anyway. this poast was just to inform all you friends of stanel ytay wei liang that he isnt dead.he is just away.that's why he hasnt posted.
so alrites.
this is it.
this has been stanley's cousin,and until next time,goodbye!

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2005-11-30T02:45:00.000-08:00

finally i blog le ...
these few days was bad ...
gg overseas in two days time ...
n wth ... sort of sick now ...
k ... i m so dead ...
i took things worth $19.10 last sat ...
then is like a bit of addicted liao ...
die ... die ... die ...
oh yeah ...
todae was like gt work ...
then was like bloody irritating la ...
the irritating machine ...
is like short $21 at first ...
then i paid $1 in e end ...
bloody hell ...

SazE
wth

2005-11-25T07:01:00.000-08:00

hellooooo....
just a little update by stanley's cousin.
since his stupid blog is so dead.
i dont even know why he wants a blog.
yea,he isnt dead.he is just lazy.meanwhile,pester him to update if you guys want.
and that's it.
goodbye.

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2005-11-20T22:26:00.000-08:00

haix haix haix ...
its all over ...
shd i be happy or shd i be sad ...
i dunno ...
i seriously dunno why i m
so demoralized & sad ...
haix ... its so unfair ...
urghhh ...
arghhh ... its all over ...

SazE
demoralized

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2005-11-18T17:53:00.000-08:00

i'm gonna be so damn dead ...
urghh ....
wun be going to e blardy camp ...
waste my time ...
dun go still mux pay $35 ...
wf la ... haix ...
die die die ...
tmr going liao ...
jux pray tt i wun ciao siae
i wld be nervous dao sai ...
die die die ...
arghhh ...
todae went pool plus bowl agn ...
pool was quite bad ...
bowling was gd ...
got like 5 strikes in a row ...
so overall score was like 171 ...
haha ... k ... die die die ...

SazE
so dead

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2005-11-16T23:10:00.000-08:00

heyy ... bk to blog ...
its like onli 11.10 n my whole family
is gonna go to bed ... wth ...
i wld be sleeping at 2 ...
shd sae quite early ... haix ...
k la ... nth much happen this few daes ...
veh sian la ... have been like practising daily n i
jux couldnt get tt tune ...
arghhh ... its jux three more days ...
super nervous sia ...
yahhh ... haix ...
on the 19th to 21th of dec gt tt blardy
camp ... i die die also wun go there rot ...
i rather rot at hme than to rot there ...
arghh ... sat is gonna be so damn busy ...
haix ... tt's it ... gotta go play ...

SazE
i leave everything in your hands

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2005-11-08T22:43:00.000-08:00

bored bored bored ...
played pool n bowled todae ...
then nth much 4 e day le ...
its so bored la ...
haix ...
damn nervous for next sat la ...
i'm jux not prepared la ...
like onli a few days n i haven even prepared ...
haix ... jux go for it la ...

SazE
i'm so courageous ...

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2005-11-07T17:55:00.000-08:00

bkbkbk ...
i din blog for veh long is becox my com lag n
was tually quite busy wit work la ...
haha ... i so happy todae cox ...
nt rilly happy la ...
bt its my PAY DAY today ...
sad la ... money in bank ... cant rilly use ...
sort of like my mother keep for mie liddat ...
i tually dyed my hair le ...
n ... i m going china le ... lol ...
is like my mother told mie yesterdae tt we going ...
n like i wasnt prepared la ...
so was like err ... okay ...
n there is this chinese singing contest going on ...
for students one ... mux wear uni one ...
n is organised by media corp ...
hahaha ... if ur see mie on tv during jan then
it means i gt join lor ...
if dun have means dun have lor ...
mux BHB a bit ... ppl wan laugh then laugh lor ...
their mouth ... lol ...

SazE
i'm thick skinned

2005-11-05T21:01:00.000-08:00

hello.
stanley tay is not dead.yet.
he is just plain lazy to blog.so i decided i'll inform you guys about his whereabouts.
im his cousin,by the way.
he says he will try to update soon.
so,soon.
and check back,you might be lucky enough to be the first to see his once in a blue moon update.

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2005-10-27T21:59:00.000-07:00

sian sian sian ...
had art almost e whole day ...
tmr gt no sch ... gd ...
ppl will change ...
you were jux like 2 diff person ...
i cant be bothered anymore ...
we arnt close nemore ...
so its like wateva ...
y cant i do wad i like ...
i cant dye hair ...
cant go church ...
cant have a ear hole ...
still gt wad ...
as usual ...
life sucks n is always
meaningless ...

SazE
life sucks

bla

2005-10-26T21:56:00.000-07:00

hehs ... bored ...
todae was a bored bored dae ...
k ... went sci centre todae ...
crap la ... jux like walking abt la ...
then look at all those sci stuff ...
how interesting rite ...
then go bk sch got our report book ...
i went E3/2 ...
okay la ... nt rilly disappointed tt i din get
into E3/1 ...
competition also nt so great in 3/2 ...
at least all e bad ppl nt in 3/2 ...
u shd noe in wad class la hor ...
dun need me exxagerate rite ...
i tink i wld be kanna sack tmr ...
hai ... tmr tually wannna late one lor ...
then tt goh soon hua wanna see mie tmr morning during eril ...
waste my time ... hai ...
i also dunno if sacking a not la ...
hai ... rilly veh sian one lei ...
had been so down these few days ...
hai ... cant be b0thered la ...
holi wun be so stressful ... hai ...

SazE
is there retribution

bla

2005-10-26T21:55:00.000-07:00

sian

2005-10-24T23:49:00.000-07:00

sian ... din go sch todae ...
if i sae i was sick ... no one wld believe ...
nvm ... i m tually nt sick ...
its raining now ...
i going out le ...
b4 i become all wet ...

SazE
jux in time

Bad

2005-10-24T18:47:00.000-07:00

todae was a bad bad day ...
tually dun wan go sch todae one ...
bt like at hme a bit bored ...
in sch was also bored la ...
stay in e hall almost for e whole day ...
i have been crapping all e while ...
tually todae after sch is gt prefect meeting one ...
i din go bt gt parent letter wad ...
even if i tell them tt , will they believe ?
then e goh soon hua looking for mie at 2pm agn ...
e board also nvr write my name ...
i go for wad ... then e ppl down there give
e comments like i gt owe them nething liddat ...
i seriously have nvr like e board b4 ...
e ppl there rilly suck ...
if they see tis then see lor ...
wan tell then tell all they wan la ...
i rilly dunno if i shd quit a not ...
or jux to bear wit it for like 1 1/2 yrs more ...
i rilly dunno ... arghh ... i need help ...

SazE
have no trust in anyone

nth

2005-10-22T17:48:00.000-07:00

veh irritated wit this com ...
wadeva las ...
going out soon le ...
is this suppose to be faith ...
y mux i have such rude friends ...
u r tt selfish since e dae i knew u ,
so its alright ...
life has nvr been meaningful ...

SazE
nth

heh

2005-10-21T22:40:00.000-07:00

finally bk ...
morning went for e lame english course tt is
NOT at all fun ...
then it ended at 12 pm ...
so was like go tiong awhile then rush hme ...
went out at 2 plus cox i had to reach holland V at 3 pm ...
then came hme jux onli ...
how sian ... veh tiring sia ...
so mani things to remember n do ...
arghh ... lucky tmr dun need to go ...

SazE
is tt all i wan

Irritated

2005-10-20T22:12:00.000-07:00

arghhh ... veh sad ar ...
i m super angry n sad can ...
arghhh ... tt news rilly spoil my dae ...
arghhh ... arghhh ... arghhh ... arghhh ...
tt bad news was tually gt e overall results for e whole year ...
i gt 3rd in class n 21 in level ...
super irritated can ...
no scholar ship liao ...
do u noe its jux like onli a few ranks then
my $50 or $100 wun fly away ...
arghhh ... i noe i veh money face ...
bt is rilly veh wasted lor ...
mux be e art la ... tt stupid cher give so low ...
biased dao sai ar ... newaes its over le la ...
i m now veh worried abt nt getting into chem n physics class nia ...
if i go to tt bio class i sure die veh badly one ...
heck la ... its all over ...
i tink i sound veh proud ...
bt i m jux super pissed la ...

SazE
unable to face e truth

haix

2005-10-19T21:19:00.000-07:00

sian sian sian ...
todae was bored la ...
went for art e whole dae ...
go for art is beta than staying in class ...
haha ... yah ... then is like nth much liao ...
basically , its jux all art ...
i dun wanna go bk sch on tis fri ...
9 to 12 lei ... wth ...
a stupid waste of time n effort ...
sia la ... a few more days to holidays ...
sort of looking forward to it ...
tually also quite sian la ...
jux imagine looking & working wit a
dull face person everydae ...
arghh ... cant be bothered la ...

SazE
u light up my life

disappointment

2005-10-18T21:55:00.000-07:00

urghhh ... sian ...
todae is so bored n stressful ...
gt bk all e results except home econs ...
sia la ... all so low ... chinese so far is e highest la ...
its like onli 75 ... wth ...
all e others also veh low la ...
sian ... tmr can finally go for art ...
n tt old hag ... give onli 65 ... wth ...
urghh ... unfair ...
maths i fail lei ...
dunno how to tell my mother ...
" mummy ar , i fail maths lei ... how ar ?"
"mummy ar ... i tell u one thing k ... dun sad ... i fail my maths ... "
urghh ... dun wanna tok abt exam stuff le ...
sian la ... nt going china le ...
expected la ... they alwaysi sae sae nia ...
i also can sae i wanna go to e moon ...
urghhh ... jux hate liars n ppl hu make
EMPTY PROMISES ...
urghhh ... sort of disappointed ...

SazE
disappointments

sian

2005-10-17T19:57:00.000-07:00

hehs ...
finally back ...
k ... todae was such a busy dae ...
morning arranged to play bad wit guo , mitchell & jia yi ...
then we go safra there slack awhile ...
then had to rush to ... from 2 to 5 ... hehs ...
down wanna sae go where ...
neways , now rushing to bukit merah to buy some things ...
how busy ...
i skipped two meals todae ...
how could i ? can ...
dot ... tmr going to e art thing le ...
dun need stay in tt class ...
yesh ... wateva la ...
TT CLASS !!!
my father able to get e leave le ...
maybe able to go ...
hope so ... dunno la ...
still praying ... haha ...

SazE
god bless

fcuk

2005-10-16T22:54:00.000-07:00

fcuk la ...
fcuking pissed ...
becox of e fcuking com agn ...
will get high blood n die becox of tis com ...
y mux my mother be so kpo ...
cant stand her la ...
wateva la ...
cant be bothered much abt anything ...
todae freakingly bored ...
came hme afta go for ... in e morning ...
then go east coast eat ...
my mother drive us there ...
sort of learning la ...
then my parents went to my grandmother hse ...
lucky i din go ...
if nt i will rot n decompose there ...
urghhh ...
nth much la ...
going "out" tmr ...
obviously nt town ...
wld be able to avoid la ...
avoid hu ? dunno la ...
wanna go china during december ...
my father asking for leave tmr ...
dunno can a not ...
jux hope tt e leave is allowed ...
will pray for tt ...
nth much le ...

SazE
a plastic in me

fuck

2005-10-15T23:58:00.000-07:00

suck la ... everything suck ...
dunno la ... mux be moodswing agn ...
sian ... bored la ...
went habour front todae ...
sort of eat dinner ...
then go hme ...
sian la ... tmr still had to go ...
stupid la ...

SazE
save mie

hehs

2005-10-14T23:02:00.000-07:00

i'm finally back afta few days of "postless"
had home econs yesterdae ...
e exam was rather okay la ...
memorize all e deepavali stuff ...
how wld i noe wad mux i bear in mind when i go their hse ?
i onli know i mux eat n drink ...
n play ... haha ...
had art todae ... was good ...
lol ... i din had time to rest ...
cox i tually went toilet half way to ...
afta sch was like rush immediately to XOBK ...
till 2 pm ... then went to safra there bowled also ...
was damn freaking lucky din see angela they all there ...
super heng ar ... haha ... if nt i will be like err ,,, hi ...
dun tink so ... will siam asap ...
cox i tually tot of tt when we were on our way there ...
dun tell hu lei ...
dot ... yeahs ... was veh lucky ...
then afta tt , my sis fetch mie home ...
tt stupid manager la ...
so irresponsible ... mux change date agn ...
irritating ... nvm ...
i believe u r bk in ur country now ...
u left yesterday morning ...
y din u sms mie to inform mie tt u were leaving ?
i hope tt u will succeed in everything u do ...
if there is rilly fate , i believe we will meet agn ...
will remember u always as a good mate ...
all e best ...

SazE
god bless

Sian

2005-10-11T12:39:00.000-07:00

din blog last few days ... had science n geog ...
finally these 2 tough paper is over ...
still gt home econs ... sian ...
for bio ... i tink i will fail again ...
din learn anything on dna ...
die ... physic n chem still okay ...
geog was okay la ...
tmr is math ... mux revise ltr ...
cox cant study math ...
i jux wanna thank HiM for
wad had happen on sat last week ...
its jux 2 more days away ...
times passes real fast ...

SazE
have trust in HiM

Stress

2005-10-07T23:28:00.000-07:00

i like so free to blog everyday ...
lol ... i onli use com every night tually ...
so its like xi guan le ...
its onli 1 hr liddat nia ma ...
lol ... nvm ...
todae was a bit bored ...
but nt tt bored cox tmr is SaT ...
can sleep longer le ...
veh stress over e subject combination thingy ...
nt sure if i shd take e elective bio a not ...
is like gt good n bad points la ...
is scared cannot cope ...
veh confused la ...
maybe cannot even get in also ...
beta dun tink so much la ...
cant believe tt i'm actually going to spend my holiday
SLOGGING ...
neways , i going study now le ...
till 2 to 3 i tink ...
lol ...

SazE
i open up to you

haix

2005-10-06T21:54:00.000-07:00

urghhh ...
super sian ...
msn gt problem agn ...
todae was bore bored boring ...
sian ... was a little hardworking todae ...
lol ... anyways the sch finally gt triple science ...
nt sure if able to get e elective bio a not ... but will try ...
no harm tually ... still gt some lame ppl wanna take lit for SS ...
how dot dot ... nt my business lor ... tmr is Friday le ... going for ...
lol ... looking a bit forward to it ... lol ... sian ... its 7 days le ... tink she shd ,,,
be prepared le ... cox its like few days left nia ... will she eva come bk ... i dunno ...
hope so ...
lonely days ...

SazE
without your prescence

Oh

2005-10-05T21:37:00.000-07:00

sian ...
everyday is jux a bad bad day ...
sian sian ...
dun wanna tok abt this boring day ...
did have some peace todae ...
bt sometimes i rilly veh guo fen ...
urghh ...
should n regret for wad i did ...
i hate ppl ...
ppl r e one tt r evil n cruel ...
urghh ...
cant wait for this friday ...
forward time ...
how lame ...
still gt 8 days more ...
i rilly hope tt i would have e time tis sat ...
but i dun tink so ...
jux dun wanna think abt it ...
i cant take it nemore ...

SazE
unwilling to accept the fact

sian

2005-10-04T20:44:00.000-07:00

wad a bad bad day ... lol ...
tmr go bk to normal sch time le ...
super sian sia ...
y dun wan tmr exam ...
then can faster start faster end ...
todae had chi P1 & P2 ...
P1 was okay ... crapped a lot ...
si han wrote 3 page lei ...
1st time ...
compo also 3 page la ...
then for P2 was like so mani ppl cheated ...
susan wong la ...
dun even noe how to give paper ...
like e early bird game veh nice liddat ...
how unfair ...
e compre was quite hard la ...
copy paste a lot ... write until hand pain ...
urghhh ... exam faster over can ...
9 more days to go ...
art nt counted la ... lol ...
can u plx have an aim in life ...
aiming 3/4 is real stupid ...
as in 3/4 isnt stupid ... shd aim for e best ...
wan be same class wit "it" ar ?

SazE
give me life

Freak

2005-10-03T22:36:00.000-07:00

arghhh ... wad a boring day ...
had eng exam todae ...
everything was okay n i had no comments ...
tmr is chinese ... sian ...
i almost like learn e words until can die liao ...
hope to remember everything tmr ...
its gonna rain now ... lol ...
its good to rain ...
nth le la ... good luck ppl for chi tmr ...
chi is much more better than eng ...
cox i'm chi educated ...
eng is ji tek ji tek one ...
arghhh ...
shall crap no more ...

SazE
sin no more

Urgh

2005-10-02T21:55:00.000-07:00

sian ... was a bad bad day ...
tink gonna fall sick ...
tink tmr wld be better ...
tmr is eng exam le ...
start of 1st paper ...
faster end better ...
i quite believe in fate ...
was tt rilly e last time tt i will be seeing u ?
will i ever be able to meet u again ...
i'm nt sure ...
jux hope tt i will be able to find e time to send u off ...
i'm so emotional ...

SazE
god is the way

...

2005-10-01T23:59:00.000-07:00

cant wait for exams to end ...
super sian can ...
went plaza sin todae ...
spent quite some money on arcade ...
jux came hme ...
sian ... dun even noe wad can study for eng ...
dun tink stuying for eng ...
will be studying chinese ...
studying is so sian ...
i gotta go study le ...
maybe till 2 or 3 ...
dunno la ...

SazE
believe in god's word

Sianx

2005-09-30T22:49:00.000-07:00

so bored ... bad bad day todae ...
e day was once agn runined by it ...
home ed was so sian ...
"it" is such a free loader ...
din do or help much ,,,
also can get e marks ...
still can show off somemore ...
arnt u ashame ...
urghhh ... wad is e problem wit me agn ...
gt bk geog test marks ...
onli 17.5 ...
super lousy can ...
after sch ,,, go n see e james koh ...
wah piang ... waste my time sia ...
ask mie stay till 2 o' clock ...
then mux write reflection n do a card for e
rainbow camp ppl ... heck la ...
i finish liao ,,, hand up le jiu ciao ...
wad's wrong wit clapping hand ???
i still dun see e reason for doing all those crap ...
next mon exam le ...
y cant e next 2 weeks pass asap ...
clock ar clock ,,,
fast forward la ...
even after u left ,,, i believe i wun forget u ...
is tt e last day tt we last met ...
i hope i'm wrong ...

SazE
following your instructions

Bad

2005-09-29T22:20:00.000-07:00

wasnt feeling great tis few days ...
everything suck ...
was a bad day todae ...
cox it wasnt good ...
had almost 4 free periods todae ...
tt's abt 2 hrs ...
wasnt relaxing ... all i did was rushing through hmwk ...
gt bk maths test ...
19/20 ... okay la ... at least won "it" ...
had to stand behind class cox i clap ...
my hand i cannot clap izzit ...
i clap ur business ar ...
still had to go n see him tmr for wad crap punishment ...
biased teacher ...
there is rilly nth betw us ...
u need nt go to ur blog to blog all those crap ...
i cant be bothered much la ...
y time passes so fast ?
( it isnt becox 2/2 is seperating so i made tis comment)
y mux life be so realistic ???
y ppl can be so cruel n heartless ...
how i wish i could turn bk time ...

SazE
confused

Haix

2005-09-28T22:29:00.000-07:00

urghhh ... sian again ... din have PE todae ...
cox it was raining ... i tink jia yi in love wit mr koh ...
kept toking to him ,,, showing off her tonning to him ...
jkjk ... lol ...
eng was tiring ... kept doing compre ...
cant even rest head or tok ...
art was lame ... drawn sea shells for weeks liao ...
nth liao ...
seriously , its nt fun doing tt ...
its nt cool , fun , or smth tt u shd be proud of ...
u choose it e way u wan it to be ...

SazE
do god proud
( told ya SazE good boy )

Tues

2005-09-27T21:25:00.000-07:00

arghhh ... how bored ... todae was so sianx ...
cox its a tues ... everyday is jux so sian when there is sch ...
dun need to go sch hall tis morning ... cox of dunno wad also ...
tink e next of whole week also dun need ...
ya ... then bio test was okay la ...
at least will pass i tink ... arghh ... dunno ...
then gt back geog last last test ... i onli get 24 ...
how lousy ... nvm ...
nth much le ...
btw , thanks michelle n angela for e bibble ...
haha ... wad is ugly abt e whole thing is onli e ribbon ...
lol ... nvm ...

SazE
+

Sian

2005-09-26T22:12:00.000-07:00

todae is as usual another dull n boring monday ...
kept having electricity problems in sch todae ...
cant be bothered ... nvm ...
had spa test ... was okay la ...
duiring chinese was fcuking pissed ...
tt pathetic mdn long was useless ...
i copied everything in her wateva ke tang bi zi ...
then onli give mie 58 ...
then i asked her y ... she told mie cox my book veh luan dirty ...
so she meant tt " it " can get 72 with quite a nice book bt almost
empty inside la ... its nt jealous ...
its unfair ... do so hard onli 58 ...
cant be bothered abt her la ...
i'm nt pissed wit tt ...
then "it" down there show off ...
jia yan jia cu ...
i dun rilly give a damn abt a shortie tt couldn't grow tall ...
arghhh ... i jux can't resist to hate "it" ...
wad a bad day ...

SazE
life has to go on

Bored

2005-09-25T22:12:00.000-07:00

arghh ... so fast weekends gonna pass le ...
sian la ... hafta go bk sch tmr le ...
yest. went to tiong to see e jue dui supertstar ppl ...
was veh squeezy ... so mani ppl la ...
squeeze until e " lan gan " drop ...
ppl can be so crazy at times ...
todae went bugis awhile ...
ate lunch la ... then camer hme ...
had tot of "koping" smthing from a shop ...
bt i knew tt it was wrong la ...
bt i din do la ... cox no time ...
lol ...

SazE
i did the right thing

Freak

2005-09-23T23:13:00.000-07:00

freaking irritated la ...
tis com is giving so much problems ...
seriously veh pissed ...
y is there such selfish ppl ?
y mux there be such stingy ppl ...
y mux there be also such a irresponsible person ...
everything jux suck ...
life suck ...
its seriously no point living sometimes ...

SazE
life sucks

...

2005-09-22T21:08:00.000-07:00

sianx again ...
todae was okay ...
gt VAP todae ...
how sian lor ...
din rilly do much todae ...
aftasch was like damn sick ...
playing like open numbers ...
then e one choosen had to
finish e mixture of coffee , egg , soup ,
rice , pepper , light source ,
water melon , ice cream &
chilli ...
how disgusting ...
newaes , jux dip n lick can liao ...
lol ...
k la ... nth much ...

SazE
praying hard

Sian

2005-09-21T19:09:00.000-07:00

arghhh ... todae was as usual a
bad bad day ...
all sch days r usually bad ...
geog test was still okay ...
din have PE cox gt e survey thingy ...
then after sch had to go n see goh soon hua or hwa ...
lol ... kana scolding la ...
sae wad nvr go for meetings ...
sae attire so lap zeh ...
then ms ang behind ...
then also kana scolding ny her ...
arghhh ...
still mux go n cut hair ...
damn ma fan can ...
ai yah ... heck la ...

SazE
had to believe in you

Urghhh

2005-09-20T22:42:00.000-07:00

arghhh ... todae is so sucky ... sianx ar ...
had math test ... then was okay la ...
after sch was fun ...
no la ... nt rilly ...
then go hme la ...
jux study finish geog ...
its damn lot la ...
gonna die ...
arghh ...

SazE
repentance

Freak

2005-09-19T22:29:00.000-07:00

i took 30 mins jux to on e com ...
com rilly gt mani freaking problems
tt will piss one off ... heck ar ...
todae was a bad bad monday ...
all mondays r simple so sucky ...
k ... todae IT din come ...
was rather peaceful ...
then lessons was as usual ...
i dunno y i begin to dislike so mani ppl ...
wad actually happen ... arghhh ...
cant be botherd ...
jux rilly looking forward to e last paper ...
then all problems n stress will be gone ...
abt a month more to struggle ...
life will be better then ...

SazE
why must man sin

Irritated

2005-09-18T21:49:00.000-07:00

everything jux doesnt go rite ... everything is getting so stressful ...
com always hang ... everything is irritating ... todae is bored ...
y mux there be exams ... why is tis coming one month passing so slowly ...
...

SazE
salvation

Phews

2005-09-17T18:24:00.000-07:00

hehs ... went out todae morning ... went clementi wait for wee liang ... he was late for 20 mins ... bt nvm la ... mux forgive n forget ... lol ... then met at mac for bibble study ... learn a lot ... lol ... then went to one of e member of e cell group's house ... sang song n learn more abt e bibble ... then ate mooncake ... then got latern making competition ... half way jiu go liao ... then went clementi for lunch ... then go hme ... now going out liao ... woos ... k la ... end off le ...

SazE
have faith

Hehs

2005-09-16T23:21:00.000-07:00

sian ar ... todae was as usual a bad day ... cox its so sian ... home ec lesson combine class todae cox ms siti din come ... then plan n write n do alot of crap la ... then ltr eng kana scolded by cheryl tan ... most of them kana scolded for nth ... cox we disobey cher yesterdae i tink ... dunno la ... heck ... art was even lamer ... draw shells again ... obasan teaching us drawing ... how sian lor ... looking forward to e finishing day of e last paper ... arghhh ...

SazE
spritual four laws

Arghhh

2005-09-15T22:28:00.000-07:00

tt little feeling came bk again ... i jux feel like telling u tt i ... nth la ... urghhh ... stupid com .. e task bar went up n left ... like veh fun liddat ... wo bei ta pian de blur blur liao ... super irritated la ... heck care ... todae was a boring day ... gt bk physic test ... i gt onli 18 ... dunno la ... then afta sch go eat sakae ... hc treat ... lol ... so nice ar ... lol ... k la ... then nth ... stupid task bar ... i gonna play wit u now ... see hu win la ...

SazE
sin no more

Nth la

2005-09-14T20:34:00.000-07:00

arghh ... sian ... todae is hui chin birthday ... tt's y its a boring day ... lol ... freakingly irritated wit my useless uncle ... kept calling my hse for my mother ... go work la if u wan money so eagerly la ... born without hands n brains ... tt's wad call stupid ... can't be bothered wit him la ... geog test was okay la ... then cheryl tan din come todae ... free two period ... bt mux finish informal letter la ... then at art was super sian ... mux shade , colour , paste ... arghhhs ... cher told us tt she was 80 plus ... din rilly believe la ... she din look tt old ... lol ... she still sae she was a good cher so MOE asked her go back to teach ... lol ... then after sch we went tiong ... some extra things went wit us ...
oh , i act beng ??? u r worst ... act cute , beng , cool , punk ... puiii ... i rilly can't stand it la ...
oh god , i cant help it ... plx save me ...

SazE
god bless

Hehs

2005-09-13T22:24:00.000-07:00

jux finish studying for e geog test tmr ... so so onli la ... bt i study until pek chek ar ... morning had to do duty ... how sian ... then ltr go com lab for e bio thingy ... sat wit "it" ... rilly tried to forget everything bt i jux can't ... then after recess go bk class ,,, it's row was wet la ... very wet somemore ... cox of some reasons ,,, it's table was even wetter ... i shd apologise la ... how can i be so mean ? wo bian hao le ... lol ... then afta sch went home straight as well ... lol ... then met neighbour at e bus stop ... took same bus home lor ... lol ... arghhh ... nth liao la ...
LaW 3: Jesus Christ is God's only provision for man's sin. Through Him you can know and experience God's love and plan for your life.
LaW 4: We must individually receive Jesus Christ as Saviour and Lord ; then we can know and experience God's love and plan for our lives .

SazE
you're all that i lived for

Impatient

2005-09-12T22:04:00.000-07:00

tot tt todae was still 11/9/2005 ... all my ws down there put e date as 11/9/05 ... arghhh ...

morning was almost late ... cox trying to put in e " thing '' for my " mosquito bite ear " ... then lucky reach tiong liao ... saw ming wei ... she was also late la ... then we took cab to sch n she paid e fare ... lol ... then in sch was bored ... bio was e most boring lesson ... dunno wad e cher crapping also ... D & A all ard , twist here, twist there ... arghhh ... dunno la ... will get to learn more tmr ... then after sch went home straight ... so guai ... cox i wanted to sleep ... rain so heavily jux now ... was busy closing all windows then nvr sleep liao ... arghhh ... had ta close my" mosquito bite " liao la ... how sad ... tually i cant be bothered abt it ...
LaW 1 : God loves you and offers a wonderful plan for your life ...
LaW 2 : Man is sinful and is separated from God . Therefore , he cannot know and experience God's love and plan for his life ...

SazE
its meaningful

Dull

2005-09-11T22:03:00.001-07:00

how sian ... tmr mux go bk to sch le ... arghhh ... freaking bored sia ... todae din do much as well ... studied most of e time ... then was like freaking bored la ... tmr also nt comfirm have sci test ... bt jux study la ... wonder when will e car arrive ... arghh ... lame ... hate sch days ... tmr is monday some more ... gonna like bored to death ... hate sch la ... bt nt e ppl ... lol ... woos ... tis blog gt no more vulgarities ... cox i '' accepted you ''

SazE
wash them away

Woos

2005-09-10T12:59:00.000-07:00

arghhh ... morning woke up at 10 am ... then met up wit wee liang they all at tiong mrt ... then we go to e youth edition at orchard down there ... e church is tually city harvest ... then todae is gt dunno wad youth thingy ... so its near plaza sin there ... quite fun la ... then later end liao ,,, go PS eat ... then go cut hair lor ... e last time hair tt move to e side one ,,, cut away liao ... now is like super short la ... then ltr came hme , din do much ... went auntie hse ... nt looking forward to sch ...going to study le ...

SazE
i accepted you

fuck ar

2005-09-09T23:30:00.000-07:00

everything jux suck ... was bored these few days ... finally came hme ... didn't do much these few days ... today came hme ... then kana nagged at for 20 mins abt my ... oh wad big fuck ? get so paranoid over tt for wad ... everything jux suck la ... u wan u nag all u wan ... fucking pissed la ...
i rilly dont know wad to sae ...

SazE
should i listen to them

Bored

2005-09-07T14:53:00.000-07:00

can be bored to death ... at my uncle's house now ... din blog yesterdae cox i was outside ... yesterdae morning was late for geog lesson ... like 20 mins late ... wth ... cher din rilly scold la ... then afta class ,,, went home ... cox hadta go uncle house ltr ... then went parkway ... finally did wad i wanted to do ... nt veh obvious la ... bt can be seen la ... at night , went to e nokia shop ... wtf ... waited like so damn long ... went there cox my cousin's newly bought phone was "lagging" ... wtf ... in e end , still "lag" ... todae was super bored ... din go newhere ... not sure if going out ltr anot ... wth ...

SazE

passing by fucking hours

Wth

2005-09-05T21:13:00.000-07:00

arghhh ... tis is a vulgar blog ... lol ...
had my fucking ulser again ... its fuckingly pain la ... had 1 fucking ulser healed ... left wit a fucking one ... wth ... wad a fucking dae ... went 4 geog lesson tis morning ... was released at 9.30 liddat ... hehs ... so early ... if tmr also liddat early then how fuckingly good was tt ... after dismiss le , went to suntec e food fare ... had lots of food ... (its obvious) then ate there ... walk ard ... n went hme ... came bk ,,, went to eat e yong tau foo at tiong market there ... was cheap n good ... bt abit hot la .... then jux came hme ... tmr going to do tt thing le ... tt thing is innocent ...

SazE
it take time